Holding it in

Holding it in
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Holding it in
Or speaking my mind
Neither one is good

Wearing my heart on my sleeve
Trying to please everyone
Taking care of everyone
Is just who I am

Letting people walk on me
Is a habbit I can't let go
At least not for now

Holding it in keeps quiet
But yields no solution
Speaking mind
Makes me sound horrible

No matter what I do
No matter how hard I try
It's never good enough

If only I were a robot
A robot with no feelings
Can be tossed around
With no damage done

I'm not perfect
I never will be
I try my best
But it's not good enough

Why
Why aren't you proud
To see me trying
I know my responsibilities
What about yours

I just can't understand
What I have to do
To make you proud
I'm sorry

I'm not perfect
I never will be
I try my best
Please let that be good enough


March 14, 2012

A letter

This one is called "A Letter" and it is written for my grandma. RIP Grandma.

"A Letter"

I learned to garden
We planted trees
You taught me how to bake
There was always stuff to do
We took walks
You took me fishing
We stayed up late
Watching tv
Eating snacks

You watched me dance
Listened to me play my clarinet
You were always there
To encourage me
As long as i tried
You were proud

I do my best
To be all i can be
To help all i can help
I hope you are looking down
And smiling with
A "proud of me" smile